Many of you will already know that I was admitted to Hospital by Ambulance in July 2011 unconscious with Suspected Meningitis .
I don’t remember any of the first 24 hrs but I know from the A&E team in the resuscitation room that they put me on life support and that there several people involved in trying to keep me alive and stabilise me.
I want to try and raise some money and support those who have suffered with Meningitis and their families in some way if possible. No individual or family should have to face such trauma and anguish alone watching helplessly a loved one with this illness.
When I left hospital 3 weeks later the first thing I did was head to my youngest child’s childminder’s house, as I left the car I was determined he would not see me walking with sticks. I fell flat on my face… I picked myself up and realised things were not going to be the same for a while…. .2 yrs on and although my children are closer with me than ever before, unfortunately my marriage did not survive. I was suffering from severe fatigue and unable to work the long hours, look after the kids, large house and gardens as I had always done.
My wife met up through Facebook with an ex boyfriend, I was struggling to meet her demands on our relationship and the endless criticism lowered my self esteem further. When she told me she couldn’t spend her life looking after someone unwell, I felt I was to blame for being tired all the time. Within a week and just before our 20th wedding anniversary my wife walked in and announced it was over. It would take a year before I would realise she had someone else that she texted as much as 70 times every day and phoned minutes before we broke up. ……..I lost a lot during my illness and recovery I had my fair share of frustration, pain, hurt and heartache and although I have greatly recovered I will always suffer from fatigue. I would never want someone to go through what I did. I was lucky I had some support from my two kids, family and friends.
…… I’m now running 5 k twice a week……. its hard going but I’m determined to raise some money for charity and raise awareness of this terrible illness. I hope that I can in some small way help families understand that things may never be the same, but they can be good and fighting to survive and recover is worth it. They can get through this with support, understanding and counselling. I’m focused on getting fit and healthier again supporting my two kids as they grow up, trying to achieve something positive out of my experience and not let my illness define me or my future. Its taken enough already.
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